It’s 2016, finally, and obviously we’ve gotta talk resolutions, 2015 was such a lackluster year for me, there were so many things I wanted to do but was either too afraid or too lazy to try, I’m going to try harder this year.
Number one on my list is just being a braver and better person, I mentioned in a previous post that I get a lot of anxiety when placed in situations that require any form of public speaking, I hate how it affects my life especially because the people around me all seem to be really outgoing or just plain old loud. My body just turns against me (the sweats, the shakes.. You name it) and fighting that physical reaction is hard.
Don’t worry though, as Veronica Roth perfectly stated in the amazing piece of work that is Divergent:
“Becoming fearless isn’t the point. That’s impossible. It’s learning how to control your fear, and how to be free from it.”
So 2016 will be about learning how to control my fears. I feel like starting this blog was a step in the right direction, I want to speak and be heard with no fear, I know some day I’ll get there but I’m taking one step at a time.
Next on my list is obviously reading more books, I love to read, it’s more than just a hobby to me. Every time my anxiety is threatning to get me down, I just pull open a book and even though I know life is waiting for me on the other side, I just immediately feel better.
This year will also be about less stress, I’m an undergrad engineering major (2nd year). Obviously this year is very stressful because it’s when I actually get to choose what what specific branch of engineering I want to specialise in. My hearts in electronics but it’s gonna be hard because it’s back breaking work to get there. Again I don’t want my life to be as stressful as it was last year because it just increased my anxiety. So that’s something I want to work on.
Next I want to be kinder, treat my friends and family with the respect they deserve because it’s easy to take the people that matter to you most for-granted.
I just want to live a happier life this year in general, I want to be someone who is respected and heard.
Thank you for reading.